Okay, that’s a wacky post title. I’ve just posted a brand-spanking-new poetism to the site. You can find it here.
It’s actually not new. I wrote it a couple of years ago and found it in my notebook today. I cleaned it up a tiny bit (though I wouldn’t call it pristine as is) and posted it here. Commentary is forthcoming, though at the rate I progress on these it might be a while.
The poem in question: disillusion
This is an interesting poem to me, and I may have a tough time explaining it, so I’ll just do what I can, I suppose.
It’s not based on any personal experience or any particular events or circumstances that I can think of. It’s more of an “idea poem,” if you will. If you won’t, that’s fine, too.
The basic message I was going for is that people need to work together regardless of their differences to accomplish good things. When people decide to do things on their own and ignore the help of others (or don’t offer their own help to others), maybe good things can still happen, but certainly not at the same level. I don’t know if that’s what got through, but now it’s been established.
As the poem begins, different people are facing a common enemy, but they don’t realize they need to work together to defeat it. Everyone is doing his own thing, and nothing effective is being done to stop the advance of the enemy. Later on, the people start to get scared–hysterical, even–and it looks like they might not be able to win this fight, but still they refuse to work together.
By the time they realize that they have to work together, it’s too late. The enemy has won and there’s nothing that can be done to stop it now.
Interstitched in the narrative stanzas is a description of the enemy. It seems like a bunch of nonsense; really just words that I liked that rhymed and sounded nice together. But the point of these descriptive stanzas is to establish that Disillusion is just a regular guy, metaphorically. He’s not some crazily powerful, unbeatable enemy, though he is a crafty one. The lines
disillusion exists only in the eyes of the beholder
and
we talked
I was shocked
are meant to convey this, albeit ambiguously. The problem, as previously stated, is the that people wouldn’t work together, and Disillusion was able to use that to his advantage, up until the point where he won. The writing style in these second and fourth stanzas seems somewhat corny, but I liked it then (and used the same approach at least one time in a future poem), and I still like it now.
So what is Disillusion, or what does it represent? To me, it’s what happens when your focus is on the wrong things. You try so hard to do something, but (unaware or not) you are going about it the wrong way, and so it never gets accomplished. Eventually you conclude that it can’t be done, or that your time was wasted, or whatever else, and you give up on it. There are few things sadder than being disillusioned of a truly good and noble thing.
I’m not sure that I’ve adequately commented on this poem, or that what commentary I have offered makes any amount of sense. But I’ve done what I can, and that’s enough for me.
The poem in question: A Lesson To Be Learned
This poem is semi-autobiographical. I say “semi” because the end hasn’t come true yet, and I suspect that perhaps it will not completely. Oh, now isn’t that mysterious?
I wrote the above paragraph just under 11 months ago, when I originally began this poetism commentary. Looking back, this is not a poem I am particularly proud of. The meter is a mess, the narrative is all over the place, and it’s just kind of painful to read. On the plus side, it contains the word “moreso,” which both my friend Ben and the dictionary claim is not a real word, whilst I claim they are kings of the sillypants.
When I was a junior in high school, one of my LDS Seminary teachers once showed us an “epic,” i.e. longish, poem he had written when he had been close to our age. It was about some troubles he had earlier on and how lost he had been and eventually found his way back to a better place. I don’t remember the details of it, but I do remember that I liked it, and I suppose that A Lesson To Be Learned was my attempt at something similar. Without being able to compare it directly with my teacher’s, I suspect his was the better of the two.
The voices the boy hears in my poem represent the call of the devil and his angels. The line
“We will not harm you, not at all,”
Reminds me of 2 Nephi 28:21, where it is noted that “the devil… leadeth them away carefully down to hell.” We can see this all around in our society; “just a little bit won’t hurt” is the norm, and increasingly often it’s “a lot bit won’t hurt either, because it’s not really that bad at all.” Well, eventually the boy gives in, and we arrive at my favorite lines:
As he spoke the words they crowed with joy
And then dragged him away.
“One less person we must strive,”
They said, “to take and slay.”
To my imaginings, crowing with joy is an accurate description of their reaction to ensnaring a new person, especially one so young. If they can get you while you’re young and keep you, they’ll have your whole life to help them drag other people away.
So now captured, the boy realizes he was stupid, but finds it seemingly impossible to get out. He tries a few times but can’t seem to find the right road. He keeps making the same mistakes and winds up right back where he started, so he decides to give up.
But lo! Someone realizes this kid is stuck and needs some help to get out. However, he’s grown so accustomed to being stuck where he is that he lets some of the voices follow along with him, and eventually winds up right back where he was, with even less hope than he had before. Someone else helps him out, and this time he leaves the voices behind, recommits firmly himself to righteous living, and everything is happy and flowery forevermore.
I wrote this poem about two months after graduating from high school, after I had started dating a girl that I met at work. She and a girl I dated in high school (referenced in Insincerity) are the two rescuers, and since I was young and dumb (rather, younger and dumber) I of course thought that the girl I was dating then was The One, and the happy floweriness would be with her forever.
Well, probably we could have ended up together, but ultimately we didn’t, and it was for the best. Who I did end up with is the best match for me that I can imagine.
Well, 11 months later, the end still has not come true, and I still suspect that perhaps it will not completely. My strife is not ended, and though I have learned my lessons, I need continual reminding.
A few notes on variation:
The line “And then dragged him away” also exists as “And dragged him away.”
The line “He’s yet to feel real pain” also exists as “He’s yet to see real pain.”
At one point I apparently succumbed to the pressures of friend and dictionary, as “Moreso than he had earned” also exists as “More than he had earned.”
(“But lo!”? Really? Sheesh.)
Poetism Commentary: “my pathetic attempt”
The poem in question: my pathetic attempt
Originally titled, “my pathetic attempt to tell you how much,” This is one of those silly poems that you write for a girl. You know that kind? Yeah.
The poem is dated 11/3/97, but I’m pretty sure the original pre-dates that by a few months. I do have the original text, which I’ll post below.
The girl I was dating at the time (the second one from A Lesson To Be Learned) used to tell me that I had a way with words, and I would joke, “Yeah, maybe sideways,” and thus the first stanza.
The first part of third stanza is an obvious homage to (read: blatant ripoff of?) “Closer to Free” by the BoDeans.
Ultimately, this is just a sappy love poem that I’m sure I meant with all my heart when I wrote it. After breaking up with this girl I made a resolution that I wouldn’t write any more stupid love poems for girls. Of course I broke it with the next girl that dated.
The original, even more sappy, version is reprinted below. It has a few extra lines, and a few changed lines. I like the “official” version better.
Actually, reading over the two versions again, the differences in the third and fourth stanzas change the tone of the poem. Interesting.