downward spiral
forgive
forget
elusive meanings shrouded in shadow
as easy to find as a supposed release
there's no respite from nightmares but slumber
just escape found alone in the darkness
stolen in a sporadically sub-par enigmatic battle
all my tears are now gone. heartless and
alone
I weep because I cannot weep
a sieve
fisher's net
catching the mountains of emptiness
all that slips through my weaving is peace
outside clawed away from the inside
by the black hole scrabbling for a breath of air
struggle reminds me of the victory
I surrendered too freely too long ago. without care and
disowned
a disparate legacy lies at my feet
I live
as yet
untouched by reprieve from the dissonance
wondering when the torment will cease
memory falls from my uncareful fingers
in my illusory escape I shrug off the pain
newly encircled by shadowy conflagration
I am sundered from my freedom. disdained and
bemoaned
my fall from grace is almost complete